was added to my bucket to make into butter...AHHH.
My whole goal with eating well and exercising every day and most days twice is to lose some weight. I know it shouldn't be my lifetime goal, but right now it is. I know I am not at a healthy weight for my body and I know it needs to change but I cannot get it too. The harder I try, the worse it gets when it doesn't happen.
I have been working out and eating healthy for over 6 weeks now. I was expecting to see SOME kind of loss when I decided to weight myself once a month. Saturday was my day to weigh-in and BOY was I in for a shock. Not only had I not lost weight, but I had gained a pound. BAHHH!! That made me so mad/frustrated/sad/angry...every emotion. It makes me feel like somekind of failure to not even lose 1 pound...NOTHING. It makes me think that all my efforts are not worth it. it takes a lot of time and dedication to work out as much as I have, to eat the foods I eat and for what? To feel better? Well I only feel a little better, not enough to keep it up. So, after lots of tears and praying, I have decided to go to a nutritoinist. Obviously there is something I am not getting, so made an appointment yesterday and will be going later today. I will keep you posted on how things go!
I will not give up!
I will not QUIT!!
I will KEEP trying!!!